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30 Sep
2017
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How I Lost 60 Kgs and Became A More Confident Human Being.

Shame would force me to strive to live a better life. This emotion didn’t just come from those around me, it came from within me too.

I wasn’t proud of how I looked and more importantly, how I lived.

I still remember this one day very clearly. My father had this meeting.

This was a very important meeting and my cousin, a friend, and I had to go and meet my father’s clients.

Just as soon as we would enter the room, everyone’s heads would turn.

The entire room would size me up.

One would say, “What’s up with your thighs? They are huge.

Laughter, more talk about me, and pity.

To defuse the situation, my father would somehow muster, “No no. He just started hitting the gym.

He lied. I’d never stepped foot in a gym my entire life.

I didn’t play dress up because, to be honest, I thought no one would really care.

Even today, when I close my eyes, I can still see the cocktail of guilt and shame in my father’s eyes.

The Start

The journey towards a better and more confident self began about a year back.

I weighed around 120 kgs. Suffering from low self-confidence, constant humiliation, and shame, I had accepted that this was how it was going to be.

Things weren’t really going to change.

I didn’t play dress up because, to be honest, I thought no one would really care.

I didn’t really take photos and shied away from any occasion that might ask for one.

All those taunts, random jokes, and fat-shaming had become an everyday occurrence.

Right at the beginning of my 3rd year, I said enough was enough.

This wasn’t really a self-realization. I had help from my friend, Anirudh.

I researched and chalked out a plan. Now all I had to do was get up and implement it.

He told me there was no tomorrow. If I wanted to start today, then he’ll help. Otherwise, there was no point.

The Journey

I told my friend Anirudh that I couldn’t go on like this. I reached out to him. I told him I needed help.

He helped me get over the initial hurdle of sticking to a plan.

Whenever my old habits would creep in, Anirudh would pick me right back up.

He was firm, yet, supportive.

He told me there was no tomorrow. If I wanted to start today, then he’ll help. Otherwise, there was no point.

He started me on High-Intensity Interval Training at home.

I started running every day.

Whenever I would want to quit, he joined me so I didn’t lose hope.

Slowly, everything fell into place. It became a habit. I’d taken a leap of faith and it was working out.

Very slowly at first, but it was working.

The In-Between

As things started falling into place, my exams jumped right at me.

I took to meditation and yoga.

It helped me calm down. It helped me deal with my crippling anxiety.

I stepped closer towards becoming a calmer and more assured human being.

After my end-semester exams, I went back home. I joined a gym.

I started loving exercise. I promised myself that I won’t fall back to my old unhealthy lifestyle again.

Changes were miniscule initially. It became more about pride and feeling better about myself than visible changes, honestly.

I changed my diet and shifted to periodic healthier meals.

I used to get up early, and do some gardening.

Before my morning workout, I would drink some water and green tea.

After my workout, I ate 4 egg whites, one cucumber, and one tomato.

For my lunch, I had around 4 pieces of chicken and some yogurt after which I slept for a couple of hours.

In the evening, before my weight training, I ate digestive cookies, nimbu pani, peanut butter, and nuts.

After my weight training, I ate 4 eggs and one tomato.

The schedule would start again next morning.

The Subtle Change

Changes were minuscule initially.

It became more about pride and feeling better about myself than visible changes, honestly.

After 2 intense months, it was time to go back to college.

Everyone started parading me around. My old clothes didn’t fit me anymore. I had to wear a belt.

The first day of college, people didn’t recognize me.

The plump 120 kg fat guy was no more.

In his place was a more confident, reassuring Monty.

Life isn’t a movie. There is no The End here.

Casual remarks like, “You’ve changed” or “You look so different”, were showered on me.

I felt great.

Now

Life isn’t a movie. There is no The End here.

The journey, as hard as it has been, didn’t end there.

I wanted to become stronger and fitter. I started bulking up. I set small achievable goals.

Brace yourself because this is going to be hard, but not impossible.

As funny as it might sound, I wanted abs.

Blame it on the movie stars, but, this was something I had craved for a long long time now.

I started doing dead-lifting. Every session, I would try and increase the amount of weight I was lifting.

Once I reached a point where I could do my own weight, I did more.

I became stronger with every session.

And here I am today.

The journey so far has been fascinating. I’ve changed as a person, inside and out.

I don’t know if my journey was inspirational or not, but for anyone who wants to change how they look and feel, prepare yourself.

It’s a life of discipline and control.

Brace yourself because this is going to be hard, but not impossible.

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